Day dreaming

kiyamariemusic:

A cover I did of Sam Smith’s track “I’m Not The Only One.” I hope that you like it! 

I’m in love with this cover *-*

twloha:

“I don’t even know myself at all. I thought I would be happy by now. The more I try to push it I realize, gotta let go of control. Gotta let it happen.”

I have been a pretty big Paramore fan since “Emergency” came out. While I was listening to their latest CD for the first time, this song grabbed my attention immediately - especially the first line. I have been lucky enough to have a pretty decent idea of what direction I want to go in life, and I have stuck with that plan pretty well. That’s not to say there haven’t been twists and turns along the way, though.

It’s easy to sit here and think back on who I was as a person a few years ago. I am surprised at the experiences and opportunities I have been lucky enough to have. Sometimes though, I can’t help to think of all the things I could have done better. I think back and four years ago I would have pictured myself pretty differently.

Even now I have days where I feel defeated by life because I am trying to force something that isn’t going to work. I have to constantly remind myself that life is going to interfere with my plan, whether I like it or not.

“So let it happen…”

“It’s just a spark but it’s enough to keep me going.”

 It’s a small reminder and one that is easier said than done. I try so hard to make sure my plans work out the way I want them to, but the reality is when living life with other people, plans get complicated and messy. Sometimes things may seem like they’re not going to change or get better. Over the years though, I have learned that change is constant, and when I look back on the grand scheme of things, I have changed and I have made an impact on this life. Some of my best moments have been when I finally let life fall into place and didn’t try to control it.

“It’s not that I don’t feel the pain, it’s just I’m not afraid of hurting anymore.”

There are pieces of my story that are painful and difficult and ones I wouldn’t have chosen, but that’s OK with me. I may not like it, but I’m OK with it.  Our stories are all made up of thousands of memories and interactions. We don’t always get to decide where each piece of our story comes from. We don’t get to change our history. Things are going to happen in our life that we can’t control. Sometimes all we can do is just let it happen. 

The hope is that we stick with it. In the times that are difficult and frustrating, we step back and ask for help. We learn how to keep moving forward, even when our plans change. It’s learning how to give control to other people and to trust that things will turn out OK.

- Molly, TWLOHA Fall 2014 Intern

This.